Today I go online with this web and chat with Thai friends to learn how to post a new story. So happy that I met good people there who help me out the jungle to find my way here. So now I can post my story here. Kob khuun na krab all my new friends.
The story I am about to tell you is a true story of mine. It is beautiful and sad with laugh, smile, hug, kisses, loving, hate, lie and revenge. It could be a good lesson for anybody plus a must read for those who are dating or falling in love. But more importantly, I want to give it all to my lover with my deep and true love to him and a deep hope that he understands me and will become a good person as ever in my mind.
It was a story of love....1- BEGININGAs usuall, I was lying at the coach facing the swimming pool where I could enjoy a fresh air coming from no where of this place. This day, the saunna was quite busy with many customers hanging out talking, waiting, cruising up and down the halls and many areas. I ignored most of them since it was not my interest and intention. I came here just to follow my friend since he was kinda interested in this kind of adventurous action. I hate it. I hate doing that kind of I called 'luck sex'. It does not into me.
But today was a special day. It was the last day of Chinese lunar year and tomorrow was a new year day. Before we went here my friend Robert encouraged me to come. He knew I was not happy. He knew that I was not interested in this. But he wanted me to forget my sadness and relax. I followed him as I had nowhere to go.
I kept lying there and was slowly falling into sleep. I dreamed of nowhere, nothing. But something happened cutting my dream. Someone came and lying next to me. It was normal, too. Since this is a public area where anybody can come and rest. It is not exclusive for me.
I opened my eyes. I saw a young man drinking a lemon juice lying next to me. He was normal, I thought then kept closing my eyes. The noise raising from the group of people at the other end of the coach made me a little annoyed. I opened my eyes again, looking over that place to check what they are doing so funny, but I caught his eyes looking at me. Sounds strange. Sounds familiar. Suddently, I felt like he was there waiting for me. I smiled back to him.
"Are you Thai?" he asked in Thai language. I did not understand.
"Sorry, I can't speak Thai. Can you speak English?" I replied with a bit exciting.
"Oh, yes, I can" He was a bit supprised and sounded interesting in me too.
We then started to talk. He told me that he just back from a long trip to Dubai where he attended a training with his new job. He made me interesting. I interest in people with good education, English speaking (as many Thai can't speak good English in this place :-P) and nice job. Dubai is my favourite city in the world so his story immediately catch my attention. Our talk went on and on. I shared with him what I did and we all found common that we rarely came to this kind of place.
Knowing me coming from Vietnam, he told me his dream of visiting Halong bay, Hoi An town and the beaches. He loves beach. He told me his time working at Samui, and that he just came back to work in Bangkok for a few months ago.
15minutes passed
Then another 15minutes passed.
We kept talking like an old buddy with smile and laugh. Outside, many people kept moving up and down the hall, talking and chatting but seemed to me that he was the only person I could see at that time. I could hear clearly every single word he said. I could image clearly every moment of his face. I was interesting in him.
I decided to give him a kiss that night.
"What was this kiss for?" Asked with exciting.
"For our friendship" Smiled and replied.
Yes, I kissed him first for the friendship just raising in me. I did not know what would happen in the future since this relationship somewhat so new to me. I did not expect it and was a bit afraid with it. We quickly exchanged phone number and he wanted to follow me to DJ on that night. But I was not ready. I was afraid that my friend, Robert would know it and he might be supprised with my sudden change. I never exposed to him or anyone else that I am interested in man since a couple of months ago I was hand-in-hand with a Thai girl friend. I was worried. I was scared. Both for how my friend will look at me and for how long this relationship will last. I do not want short term relationship no matter my lover is who. I was a stable man. I wanted a long term love which I can take care and think of only one person. But in this world, Robert told me many time, there was no real love, just sex and short term. No commitment. So I was scared.
We did not have sex on that night at that saunna. Just touching, kissing and hugging but I felt so good. I felt exciting. I wanted to close my eyes and went on that path.
He loved me too.
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2- JJ ParkI went to this soi many times with Robert, my close friend for years. It was a small lane nestling on a corner of long and noisy Silom road (my Thai friends pronounce as 'load' :-)). It is a place for men. This soi is about 100m long (i guess so) but has many activities for all kind of ages from heart beating DJ to romantic slowly JJ Pub. You can also find a arabian style cafe and a Karaoke or a go-go bar. Besides famouse DJ station, other places with different kind of music are available for your choice to spend endless and high energy nights long in this sleepless city of angel, Krungthep. I love it. I love the noise from maximum volume huge speakers in DJ to the bright and uncluttered decor at Cafe Latin. I never go to JJ Park which until that ngiht is out of my dictionary. It is just too slow in rhyme for me. I like something more upbeat and fun.
I love fun, laugh and party.
But that night was so different. I changed my style. I followed him to JJ Park. Robert looked at me like stranger when I introduced him to him. I knew he was asking me 'who on earth this hell guy?' I understood Robert. He could not believe for many reasons. This guy was out of my dictionary but now I started to write his name in. But being friend for years, Robert knew that something runing in my blood now and to make me pleased he just smiled.
"How are you?" Robert ask him.
We took a cab to Suriwongse where we stayed. I needed to get change. I needed to be looked good and casual. So I got changed. He wanted to pay for the cab but we wanted to share since we were ... just friend. But he insisted to pay so let him go.
We quickly glidering out of the hotel heading to Silom Soi 2. We went to DJ station. Robert and my favourite hangout night spot whenever we are in Bangkok. DJ changed a lot since my last time there. A long queue of guys waiting in front of DJ. But that night I decided to follow my new friend to JJ the first time in my life. He said he had a bottle of wine there so we can join in with him. Sound sweet, isn't it?
It was Fiber 100 liquor. Hmmmmm, not my taste but okay since it was free :-P and from him. I tried. Robert took a class and cheers. The pub was a bit crowded when we were there but just a few minutes Robert became boring he wanted to go to DJ. He left. Now only me and my new friend.
One kiss.
Two kiss.
15seconds, 20 seconds, and... 45seconds.
We twisted. We loved. We exchanged hottest kisses ever. What run? What flowed? Inside me. It was hot. Very hot. It was burning. So did he. We completely forgot the crowd. We saw only us. We felt only us. No one else.
"I never seen you are so happy and ... weird like today" The bartender smiled secretly talked to my new friend in Thai. He translated to me. He was on heaven. He was happy.
"titititititititiiiiiiiiiiitiitiit" He sounded while pinching my nose like I am his son
He danced. Sang. Dance and sang like no else nearby, just us. He made me in heaven too. We both were in heaven.
Fiber 100 made my head a little bit dizzy. I wanted to rest. We went up stair. We sat. We looked. We smiled and kissed again, again, again.
Other people looked at us. We did not care. We went together to our heaven. We kissed and exchanged love like tomorrow this world would collapse and all dead.
But it was not a one night stand. It was a whole week of happiness and smile.
He smiled.
I smiled.
We totally fell in love.
But how come love came so suddenly? Would it was a signal to tell us our short future?
Who care since we do not know our future.
We then continued our lovely time together. And that week of visiting Bangkok was no like other trip before. Never I would have that feeling again in my life since I gave it all to him on the first day we met.
He loved me real. His eyes blinked when he saw me.
I loved him real, too. Oh my God!
I then decided to bring our relationship to the next step. I wanted something longer and longer.
There I went...
(to be continued....)
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3- DebtTime flied. I was back to Vietnam after a week being with him. The night before going home, I went out with him to see a movie at Siam Paragon then decided to go to his apartment to stay there. This was the second time I went to his home since we met at the sauna. We did not have any kind of sex for the whole week since I wanted to be sure of our relationship. It was weird to many others maybe including him since I did not ask him to do anything like that. As said, I respected him and treated him like a real lover, who I deeply loved. I wanted to love him by his personality, charm, characteristic not by his appearance (well he is a … normal :-P) or sex. In another word you can say I treated him with real love like the love between a lady and a man. I can wait until our relationship became right time. And that night was a right time just before heading back my home.
It was a long night for both of us. After movie, we rushed to Bug & Bee for dinner then went home. We bathed together and …
It was a perfect time for our love blossomed. That night to me was a beautiful night I would never forget in my life. It seemed that time stopped and night was too short for both of us. The smell, the touch and breath made us so sweet, so honey to each other. I loved that moment cause it was the result of our waiting, of our hope and dream.
We had breakfast at Coffee World opposite his office on Asoke road. The breakfast was not so good but to me it was great with what we had last night. That definitely the love I ever expected.
I really fell in love.
But I calmed myself down. I was still unsure about this relationship. I was still scared whenever thinking about it. I was worried for loosing him since he has so much choice, seducement and fun in Bangkok. For me, I only saw him. I could not see anybody else since I fell in love. So I was worried. I was worried that if I deeply fell in love and if the love did not last long as my expectation, I would not be able to get over it. I would not be able to forget it. My life would be a chain of miserable days. But when I heard his voice, when I saw him online, I let it go. I followed the beat of my heart. I followed him.
I followed him every single day of my life. Each day passed by, each day I loved him more. But I did not want to let him known it. I wanted him to feel it. Sometimes I felt he felt it and sometimes not.
Then the nightmare appeared between us. Money. He got into trouble with his past debts. He was struggling to pass it every day. He did not ask for help just sharing with me what happened in his life when I tried to uncover it from him. I wanted to step into his private life to make it mine and ours. Someone may said it was a mistake to step into it. But I looked at it differently. Since I loved him, I needed to help my lover.
I did all my best to transfer him the money. I did it without any hesitation and doubt. I just felt like he needed it and I needed to help. However, to erase those bad effects to our relationship, we agreed to take this as an advance to avoid him to pay high interests to the banks. He would return full amount by August using his monthly salary. I hoped that it would not harm our relationship and I did not want to put it between us.
But it was a nightmare for both of when we then fell into a tragedy.
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(to be continued below)
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